I love that God brought Tyler and I together. I love, too, that we were really good friends before we ever dated. I love that God gave us (and more particularly me) the grace to be friends and stay friends even through the years of my having a lot of feelings for Tyler and not at all knowing if he had feelings for me. I can assure you, that is not an easy task, being friends when your heart wants so much more.
You may wonder that if I liked him so much why I didn't just do something about it instead of wondering for almost two years whether or not he liked me, but never having clarity.
Well, mostly I was scarred to death to broach the subject, knowing that our relationship would be changed forever if I did. I could either find out that he didn't like me and I would then have to decide if I could still be his friend, knowing it would never go beyond that. Or I could find out he liked me, but neither of us be in the place of being truly ready for a relationship. In the end, I am glad I found out that he liked me when I did because it was when his own heart was ready and he could truly say he did like me. If it had been any sooner he may have not been ready and I would still be left in confusion.
I had one year left of school and he had two. So we dated and got engaged during my last year and got married right after I graduated.
But more about what I love about us, sometimes we are almost exact opposites. We have a lot of core values that are the same and I think that is often what ties us together. But personality and interest-wise, we are often the opposite.
I love writing and reading fiction. I am also an introvert and spend far too much time alone. Tyler on the other hand is a language guy. He loves learning languages and he is such an extrovert, dragging me into a social scene even when I don't always believe that I will enjoy it.
Sometimes we think we belong with the person we are most like. But the truth is opposites are what strengthen us and strengthen our character. I love that Tyler pushes me to do things that are hard for me, pushing me to go beyond my comfort zone.
I could have been very happy living a 'normal' life in America, out in the country or in a small town. But instead Tyler's dreams and passions of learning ancient languages have taken us to Israel, once again, far outside of my comfort zone. And all because of that, I too am able to pursue my passion as a writer and hopefully, author someday. All because I was forced outside of my comfort zone, yet able to have the time to explore more of what I love, writing.
I don't know if this passion and love for writing will get me anywhere in life career-wise, but I know at least that I am trying. These may be the only years of my life that I will be able to pursue this goal to this extent, so why not take the opportunity while I have it. I hope that in the end it will get me a book or two published, but even if not, I hope it will not be in vain. I hope that if nothing else, the stories and books I write will bring encouragement and pleasure to my own soul as I write them.
*I wanted to use a picture of Tyler and I from our wedding day, but the image was apparently too amazing for Weebly to handle without paying for the upgrade. ;)